More philosophy

I am still struggling with how horrible people can be. I read somewhere that spiritual people are especially hurt because they are more free than others to risk vulnerability. Caring and loving for them is not an option but a necessity, a vocation. I definitely think that reaching out to others has always been a vocation for me. And there are those who would say "toughen up". But you know, to hurt is human. Jesus hurt very deeply. To put on a tough front, to me, is to act arrogant. That isn't me. I listened to someone speak last night and he was talking about how people who are hurting and who have been victimized are the ones who tend to lash out, be mean, hurt others, bully. I think that must be really true in women with PCOS. Many of them have been very hurt and seem to lash out and have so much pain to hand out to others. What is really sad about that is, we must break that cycle. Though it is the way things are, it is NOT an excuse. Because you are hurting is NOT an excuse to hurt others. It is a reason to LOVE others. It is a reason to know that you don't want others to feel that pain because you know what it is like. You would think that people would realize that... But they don't. The hurt become the ones who inflict the harm. The victims become the victimizers. The abused become the abusers. Statistics show that those statements are facts. But that does not make it an excuse or a reason to continue hurting others. What it SHOULD do it make people want to TRIUMPH over their pain by helping others NOT to feel it too. TRIUMPH by helping others to heal. Break the chain. Break the cycle. Contribute to a world of GOOD. Don't just sit back and say "I have been hurt and I will hurt anyone who tries to help me." I have been considering giving up my life's work of helping others because I am tired of being lashed out at. I am tired of being the punching bag. I want to get away from stress and live my own life with my husband and children and be happy. But, the thing is, that isn't me. I am a giving person. I wouldn't be happy if I gave up on my missions. I dunno.