I run for hope

This song just came out and though I have never been a real big Melissa Etheridge fan, I love this song and I think she has done a marvelous job writing and singing it. Probably partially because she is singing it totally from her heart, beings she is a breast cancer survivor.

I run for hope

It's been years since they told her about it
The darkness her body possessed
And the scars are still there in the mirror
Everyday that she gets herself dressed
Though the pain is miles and miles behind her
And the fear is now a docile beast
If you ask her why she is still running
She'll tell you it makes her complete

[Chorus:]
I run for hope
I run to feel
I run for the truth
For all that is real
I run for your mother your sister your wife
I run for you and me my friend I run for life

It's a blur since they told me about it
How the darkness had taken its toll
And they cut into my skin and they cut into my body
But they will never get a piece of my soul
And now I'm still learning the lesson
To awake when I hear the call
And if you ask me why I am still running
I'll tell you I run for us all

[Chorus]

And someday if they tell you about it
If the darkness knocks on your door
Remember her remember me
We will be running as we have before
Running for answers
Running for more


We found out on Wednesday that my mom has full blown breast cancer and it is still there and there are more surgeries to come, along with chemo, radiation, and whatever else. They do not know where all it may be. They do know that it is in her breast and under one arm for sure. So, as you can imagine, it has been an emotionally exhausting week.

Our family has always been really lucky. We have never lost anyone in our immediate family (my parents, siblings, and their kids) to car accidents or cancer. I have said for a long time that for the size of our family we have been really lucky to not have any major trageties occuring. My stepdad died when I was 21 but other than that we have been very fortunate. I guess it is our turn now. I don't know why... but cancer is definitely effecting more and more people all the time it seems. Something is going on in the world.

We had an ultrasound on Wednesday before I drove to my mom's. It went really really good and everything looks wonderful. Our little angel is thriving and she is beautiful. Yes - they said 90% positive it's a girl. If I want they will repeat the ultrasound to check gender. She was not completely cooperative but, they're pretty sure anyway.

Check out these darling legs!!













I am so tired... so drained... but ya know, pregnancy-wise this is the best I have ever felt with any of my pregnancies. I ran into my cousin tonight at the store and she commented that she has never seen me look so good while pregnant. I will need to stay healthy and strong so I can be there for my mom. She will probably stay with us because I am pretty sure she is going to continue her treatment here, where we live. We have a good cancer center here and she needs the best care she can get.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I appreciate it so much!