Confession

Confession time. I have been taking ambien for nearly 3 years. I can't sleep without it. I almost can't sleep with it anymore because I am so used to it already. I tried lunesta and it did nothing for me. So my doctor told me that valium would be a good thing to try to get off of the ambien. So, I got valium. It does nothing for me. Nothing. I can take it and sit awake and be perfectly fine functioning, not tired, not sleepy. I don't get it. So I take ambien AND valium and it is about the same as when I was just taking ambien. I am so tired of not sleeping well lately and I am supposed to be taking tricor for cholesterol but that had a VERY OBVIOUS side effect of keeping me wide eyed all night long. I am about ready to go find some internet pharmacy and self medicate. I am tired of going to doctors and getting no-where. Also thinking about trying herbal stuff like vallarian root or whatever it's called. Kava kava. Something like that. Speaking of, I think I will go make some chamomile tea.