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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Washington Time Article featuring Amy, Tulin, & Ian

Washington Times, The (DC)

Uneven hormones wreak havoc

August 30, 2005
Section: LIFE - HEALTH
Page: B04
Shelley Widhalm, THE WASHINGTON TIMES

Caption: Karen Alston of Northeast receives a laser treatment for hair removal from D. Cheryl Burgess at the Center for Dermatology and Dermatologic Surgery. The hair on her chin is a symptom of Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, a hormonal imbalance that affects the entire body and is the most common cause of infertility in women. [Photo by Liz O. Baylen/The Washington Times]

There was a time when Karen Alston of Northeast would not go outside without first shaving and putting foundation and cover-up on her face to hide a physically obvious symptom of Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS).


"It's tough. You feel like you're a freak of nature," the 37-year-old says about the hair on her chin and neck.

Miss Alston, who was diagnosed with PCOS in 1997, experienced irregular menstrual cycles and weight gain. She took medication for diabetes and hirsutism, or excessive hair growth, but did not take the medication regularly, and she ate poorly.

Eighteen months ago, her doctor, Dr. Richard E. Blake in Northwest, told Miss Alston that she was on a collision course for a stroke, and she took him seriously. She began walking every other day, increased the whole foods in her diet, decreased her intake of carbohydrates and took her medicine.

Now, Miss Alston's cycles are regular and she is losing weight. In addition, she is undergoing laser treatment to remove excess hair, a procedure she started in March.

"The difference is night and day," Miss Alston says. "I'll just go out and face the world."

Miss Alston is among the 5 percent to 10 percent of American women of reproductive age affected by PCOS, says Sara Ducey, certified nutrition specialist and associate professor of nutrition at Montgomery College in Rockville.

PCOS is a hormonal imbalance that causes chronic annovulation, or lack of ovulation, and is the most common cause of infertility in women.

"While the name 'ovary' is in the name of the condition, it's systematic, or body-wide," Ms. Ducey says.

The exact cause of the condition is not known, but some women can be genetically predisposed to it, says Dr. Blake, a board-certified reproductive endocrinologist and associate professor in the obstetrics and gynecology department at Howard University in Northwest.

Women diagnosed with PCOS have at least two of three primary symptoms, which include polycystic ovaries, irregular or missed periods, and clinical or biochemical evidence of elevated androgen levels, Dr. Blake says. Androgen is a male hormone that includes testosterone and, at elevated levels in women, can cause male pattern balding, facial or body hair, and acne, he says.

Women with PCOS can have additional symptoms, including weight gain, insulin resistance, acanthosis nigricans, or discoloring of the skin, and skin tags, pieces of skin projecting from the normal skin layer, Ms. Ducey says. They also can feel exhausted and lack mental alertness, she says.



"Being a syndrome means not everybody is going to have the exact same symptoms," says Amy Shao, board member of the Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome Association, based in Englewood, Colo.

Most women with PCOS have numerous small cysts on their ovaries, or polycystic ovaries. Their bodies do not produce the right amount of estrogen and progesterone to carry out the menstrual cycle.

"There's an imbalance between the level of estrogen and the brain's response to that estrogen," says Dr. David Downing, Ob/Gyn residency program director at Washington Hospital Center in Northwest.



Normally, the hypothalamus, the part of the brain that measures levels of estrogen, sends a signal to the ovaries to ovulate, Dr. Downing says. In PCOS, the hypothalamus is bombarded with high levels of estrogen and responds by reducing the level of follicle-stimulating hormone that needs to be released at a precise time during the menstrual cycle, he says.

Follicles in the ovary, which are tiny sacs called cysts, hold the eggs. Each month, several eggs start to mature, with one usually becoming dominant. In the woman with PCOS, none of the eggs matures properly, and the eggs remain as cysts, causing ovulation not to occur.

"It's the abnormal signals that the ovary is getting that make the ovary produce too much testosterone," Dr. Downing says.

The shift in hormones can alter metabolism rates, causing a woman with PCOS to feel hungrier, Ms. Ducey says. If the woman eats more, the body fat she gains also produces estrogen, increasing the imbalance, she says.

In addition, a diet high in sugars overexposes the body to the insulin hormone.

Insulin is produced to process sugars, but with insulin resistance, the cells do not respond and the insulin cannot enter the cells, resulting in high blood sugar and high blood insulin, Ms. Ducey says. Insulin resistance, over time, can lead to obesity, she says.

"High insulin seems to trigger a predominance of male hormones in women," Ms. Ducey says, adding that PCOS puts women at risk for type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease and high blood lipids (cholesterol or triglycerides). "We want to catch this early in young women, and we want to treat it," she says.

Ms. Ducey recommends a diet low in sugars and refined grains and high in whole foods, along with daily exercise to help the insulin receptors in muscle cells become more sensitive to insulin molecules.

Other treatments include using birth control pills to normalize hormones and the menstrual cycle, taking ovulation-inducing medications to help improve fertility, and taking medications that help control blood sugar levels.

"It literally attacks your femininity," says Tulin Reid, who was diagnosed with PCOS in 1997. She is the founder of PCOSLiving.com, a Web site based in Southern California that provides support, research and education on the cure of chronic inflammation-related illnesses.

PCOS, Ms. Reid says, is a hormonal imbalance caused by chronic inflammation, which results from perpetual stimulation of the immune system.

"There are a number of things that can stimulate the immune system," says Ian Stoakes, Dutch author of "A New Dawn," which looks at the relationship between inflammation and fertility. Anything that "is 'non-self' triggers a response. The biggest source is food," he says.

Ms. Reid followed the protocol outlined in Mr. Stoakes' book and eliminated inflammation-triggering foods, which, for her, include wheat and tomatoes, among other foods. She lost more than 22 pounds in six weeks and saw her testosterone levels drop and menstrual cycle normalize, she says.

"For the first time, I feel like my life is under control," Ms. Reid says. "I want women to be able to see that PCOS doesn't have to beat you."

Monday, August 29, 2005

God has blessed MY broken road...








This song is perfect for my husband and I... It is just absolutely perfect.


Bless The Broken Road
by Rascal Flatts

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you


 


Sunday, August 28, 2005

...Anyway


...Anyway
written by Mother Theresa
People are often unreasonable, illogical,
And self-centered;
Forgive Them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you
Of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be Kind anyway.
If you are honest and frank,
People may cheat you;
Be Honest and Frank anyway.
What you spend a year building,
Someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness,
People may be jealous;
Be Happy anyway.
The good you do today,
People will often forget tomorrow;
Do Good anyway.
Give the world the best you have,
And it may never be enough;
Give the Best You Have anyway.
You see, in the final analysis,
It is between you and God;
It Was Never Between You and Them Anyway.

Friday, August 26, 2005

Friday has arrived!

The only bad news I have this evening is that Banjo has officially followed Fatso to toad heaven. Fatso choaked on a cricket a week or so ago and Banjo died of a broken heart, I think. They lived pretty long lives for fire bellied toads though.

I was returning a keet (baby guinea) to his family yesterday and one of the mamas (groups of 2 or 3 mama's stick together with all their keets) just about kicked my butt. MEAN and protective moms' they are! The baby had fallen so far behind he was all alone and needed to nursing back to health. So we warmed him up and gave him some sugar water and tried to give him back to his family. We did succeed, and I was not injured by the protective mom, thank goodness! LOLLLLL!!

I will post more photos of what makes me happy soon. These are not in any particular order mind you. LOL! If they were in order my husband and children would be at the very very TOP. LOL! I even have a photo of Tulin and I together but ya know... I look so BAD standing next to her! Tulin is SO beautiful (especially INSIDE). She is one of the people who's outside beauty matches her inner beauty. Not terribly common these days...

I thought it was time to share some happy thoughts with you all. I wanted to post the photo of me and all the wonderful women who attended Rochelle Rice's Women's Wellness Weekend in NY in July... but the only photo I have is of us all wearing ballerina tu-tu's (very proudly I might add). It was SO MUCH FUN but, I don't know that they would all give their permission for me to post it on my blog. :)

Well, I wish you all happiness and joy, and a wonderful weekend.

Happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy..........
I love Ren and Stimpy.... :o) I will name our next two fire bellied toads Ren and Stimpy, perhaps...

happy happy joy joy

This is my Persian kitty, Zoe. She is beautiful!















Meet Tinkerbell, the goose! Tinkerbell does NOT live in the house (he was just visiting) and he is HUGE now. He was just a baby in this picture. Tinkerbell roams freely about our property with his two duck followers.




They also have many many chicken, turkey, and guinea friends. We have babies following mamas around all over the place here! It is sooooooo cute!




These two gorgeous people are my pride and joy. Madison is 8-1/2 and Tristan (in back) is 7-1/2.

Happiness


Here are some things that make me HAPPY...

This is Matthew. Matthew is almost 4 and is very into dressing up! LOL!

He loves all his big boy underwear so much that he used to pack them all up (every pair he owns) and put them in a grocery bag and take them to bed with him at night. This occasion, where he was putting them on his head, was a one time thing. Very funny!!! He is a little clown. Also in that photo, I will add, is his most precious possession... a blanket made for him by my friend and fellow woman with PCOS, Kimra. His "moon dankie" is very special to him!

Next, he is wearing socks on his hands and feet (all different and colorful ones), his butterfly wings (he has worn those and even slept in them for over a year now...), and his sister's dress up princess top on his head.

Matthew is, however, ALL BOY. He is so "boy" that sometimes it scares me. He loves trucks and bugs and snakes and he won't touch his sisters' dolls. His liking for dressing up is very interesting though :)




<---- this is Blackjack, my ferret. I bet you didn't know this: My husband and I raised ferrets when we were in college. Blackjack is the only ferret I have ever known that has never, ever bit anyone. He is WONDERFUL with my kids.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

My Response in bold - UPDATED!!!!

Nunya wrote: Okay, okay.. here I am, 'NUNYA' in the flesh.. it's just so funny now..
#1. I am not totally paranoid that you are out to get me- I never had any dealing with you per se.

Per se? I have dealt with you for years. I didn't know you could turn and be so cruel before recently... but, I guess you never know people.

Nunya wrote: I wrote the original post- kind of light-heartedly- (or so I thought) because I am 'one of the forbidden' from the PCOS living website. I was 'forbidden' before I got the chance to really get into it for questions I asked.

I didn't forbid anyone from that site. I don't administrate that site. And FYI: The sites server was given emails sent from anonymous names and with those emails the server (the people that PCOSLiving PAY to host their site, that is) banned certain IP addresses. They did that with hard evidence of harrassing emails and the IP addresses that were on those emails. YOUR user name doesn't say "banned" on PCOSLiving, which it would if any moderator there had banned you...

Nunya wrote: FYI- I read BOTH books..

After he sent them to you for free out of the goodness of his heart. Because he wanted to help you. (Whether or not you read them is beyond me... you certainly didn't understand them that is for sure).

Nunya wrote: also FYI_ everything Ian is saying- has ALREADY been said and worked with- including testing..

That's not true. You're very very wrong on that note.

Nunya wrote: the basis that really pisses people off about this new dawn stuff is that you people act like he is the MESSIAH of PCOS or something. And in turn- he is getting PAID big bucks for those buying these tests..

He has done nothing but work to help us all, to the point of putting himself in debt. He pays a nurse or phlebotomist to come to your home or work to do the blood work for this test. he pays to have the bloodword overnighted. He pays for all the machinery and equipment. He is, just like business medical and otherwise, operating in debt right now. He is not making any money. But when he does, why shouldn't he? My doctor does. Every other medical person I know does. Heck, about the only person I know who works really hard for NOTHING, for the reason that I want to help others, is ME!!!!

Nunya wrote: Tests- that I KNOW are super similar to a few that have already been out there for YEARS. See, I not only DID research- I also found test that take insurance.. and seen results from both. (Yes, I have friends on both sides of the camp.. )

???? You have no evidence of this. That is because it is simply not the case. You probably are reading about allergy tests. That is NOT what this is.

Nunya wrote: My intention was not to bother or harass with that post- I just remember trying to follow a link that you said 'we should really check out' it had come in an email or something.. I tried to look at it- and got that same message 'forbidden 403'

Why wouldn't you email me so I could help you? Why would you post a nasty note anonymously if it was meant well?? If you are not a person who has sent harrassing emails there is NO reason your IP address would have been blocked by the server owner. NO REASON!

#2I dont think you know who I am- you never helped me at all- you never ever talked to me- never sent birthday messages- or whatever- so I think you think I am someone else.

Actually, the birthday message was for your son. But, yes I do know who you are. Don't fool yourself. I also assisted you with issues you were having just the other day. Because I am a nice person and a professional. Don't come and tear down my personal writings, my soul bearing brutally honest blog and try to compare to how I work on a professional basis. I have every right to speak my mind just like you do.

Let's talk hiding behind some fake user name.. yep- sure did.. why?? Why not? My messages were GENERAL about New Dawn- not at you- however.. now I am upset..

General??? Like how you called us a "crazy cult" and other things on other PUBLIC blogs??? How personal is that? How general is that?? (You weren't upset when you called us that??? And tell me, what did I do to you to deserve that? NOTHING. Not one thing. Not here nor anywhere else. You dished it out and now you can't take it)! I have never called ANYONE a crazy cult before. That is the most insulting thing I could imagine next to being called Satan! Oh my. You're so off base!! YOU have attacked us personally when all we did was try to HELP you! I said absolutely NOTHING about you or anyone else until the attacks started against me. And why can't I defend myself?? For what reason should you be able to bash me all you want and me not be able to respond??

Nunya wrote: The main reason- the way you and the other cohorts PERSONALLY attack folks.. you did it to me when I was still on PCOSLiving.. you sent an email to a friend of yours- who is also my friend- and refered to me (or who you thought was me) as a troll!!

FIRST OF ALL... a person sent me (SENT ME AN EMAIL... not vice versa!) an email specifically asking why YOU were banned from the PCOSLiving site. I told her that IF you were it was by the server owner and not me or anyone else there. (And again, WHY should I not be able to defend myself of accusations that are not true and you should be able to just do and say whatever you want while I do NOTHING to defend myself? The only thing I have said is the TRUTH... period).

I went on to label you as a troll, which is a term that has more meaning than just an ugly short man who lives under a bridge... A troll on the internet is someone who poses as "supportive" or whatever on one website to get info but then goes behind your back to other sites and people and cuts you down (like being all nicey nice on PCOSLiving but going to other websites and calling us names like CULT and what not). That is not just me calling you a name. That is a term that is used on the internet. We have used it for YEARS in the email list and forum world.

By the way, I never called ANYONE else a troll so if you think I don't know who you are yet you're crazy.

Nunya wrote: Name calling- reeeeal mature. You down people's choices if they are not new dawn-

No, I defend myself against people who CUT on ME and other people for OUR choices. You can choose whatever you want. But don't you go calling me names like a CULT behind my back and expect me NOT to come back with the truth. I WILL defend myself and I will tell the truth.

And as for you people who email me and post on my blog and complain about me???? THAT IS WHAT I "DOWN".


ike the stuff you said about 'Weight Watchers' Who are you to tell people they want to be sick because they are trying something other than new dawn.. before you found new dawn- did you want to be sick??

I said that ON MY BLOG and no where else. Because again, this is MY space and where I will talk freely about whatever I want. Did you read the description??? It says if you get offended please DON'T READ IT. But you have not only read it you have posted nasty grams on ALL of our blogs. GET A LIFE ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!! Go do your own blog. And stay away from me. Don't come to MY space and cut down what I write. Get over it!

Nunya wrote: Any of you- that goes for Tulin too... It's GREAT you guys love this so much and could afford the test and all-

I can't afford the test. Who ever said I could????????? You are not getting your information from a very reliable source.

Nunya wrote: but it's not right to downgrade others..

And you do it why?? It's right for YOU but it's not right for me to defend myself? Like you should talk. You downgraded and attacked me and I had done NOTHING to you. When I read you referring to me as a cult member I was SHOCKED and horrified because I had done NOTHING against you! You decided that I was bad before I defended myself or stated the truth about any of you. You just think I am going to lay down and say, "okay, go ahead, kick me... I won't fight back..." That is insanity!

Nunya wrote: You claim to be so nice and spiritual- but yet tell people to jump off a cliff, and say evil things.. then talk about being Christ-like of all things.. Well - that's all very interesting.

Again, my blog, my right to write whatever I want. You hurt me with your words on other VERY PUBLIC websites before I ever even realized that you were anything other than a friend and supporter, because you are a mean spirited person, Then you follow me to MY blog and continue to cut me down here???? You people are obsessed. Not going to be happy until you see blood? Yeah, I stand by my words. Go jump off a cliff. I want nothing to do with you. You and anyone else who treats other human beings like this.

Nunya wrote: #3The very reason I got on here- and what all THREE of you say "why come out here and read the blogs, why bother with us...??" Because someone is always saying SOMETHING about it in the regular PCOS boards.. boards that should be SEPARATE from New dawn.

Where??? What are you talking about??? My blog is being talked about on any PCOSA list? That is not the case. You're full of it.

Nunya wrote: PCOSA STILL has the advertisement for New Dawn.. and that's palin WRONG. No one can dispute it though because the president is part of the gleasome-threesome that run this racket.

The entire board of directors approved the ad just like any other ad when someone PAYS the PCOSA to advertise. DUH. The PCOSA has to get money from somewhere, and it isn't getting it from all the people who do NOT support it or bother to join as a paying member. You refer to yourself as a "member" but you're not and you never have been. A list member. A user of all the free resources that are provided. But NOT a supporter. (But then people like that seem to find a way to not only NOT financially support the organization but also to make jobs like MINE more difficult....... you may as well SPIT on me. I have worked for you all for FREE for over 5 years only to turn around to get trampled on by people who don't even help the organization stay alive!!!!)

Are all the other ads on the site wrong too???? You want to PAY to have them all removed? Or you just want to see the organization FAIL because they can't pay their bills?? What have you ever done for them besides bitch?


Nunya wrote: #4Happy with myself.. yes, I sure am. I don't spit on anyone or stab them in the back- how can I when I don't and never had PERSONAL dealing with you??

That is NOT true. You have had the advantage of knowing who I am long before I knew who you were. But now, yes, I know who you are and yes I have personally dealt with and helped you. Do you want to continue to lie about it here?

Nunya wrote: Oh and- I do have a conscience- it tells me to WARN others of this weird group. I have been pretty sucessful too..

Glad you're so proud of making my life difficult. At least you're done denying it. Wierd group? Grow up and go find yourself someone else to harrass.

Nunya wrote: One of you - I think it was Kerim said Marie should 'form a club' well- yeah some of us sort of have.. we support each other- are open to ideas and all questions.. I mean NOTHING, NOTHING is a 100% cure- NOTHING. I dont' care if Ian walks on water with his hat backwards- there are some- me, included that don't buy this whole basis..

So, now you're penalizing ME for what others have said and done? nice!!!!!!!! So, are you all a "wierd group" too? No one is forcing you to buy anything. All we have ever asked was for enough respect for fellow women with PCOS to NOT RIP THEM TO SHREDS just because you disagree with their choices. Yes, that is right. YOU RIPPED US TO SHREDS and you may as well stop denying it. I have the proof. I didn't even know you disagreed until I found the poison you were spewing about me on other sites.

Nunya wrote: #5I have to admit- I don't sleep well at night- but that has to do with my kid not sleeping..

The kid that I wished happy birthday to? How about when I have always been kind to you and even called you "neighbor" since we are? No, you're right. I don't know who you are. Nice though that you're little game has caused others to not like me and attack me because they're sucked in by your lies.

Nunya wrote: #6THREE fingers pointing at ME?? Wow- that's alot of fingers!! Oh- I know- it's the holy trinity of New Dawn.. Tulin, Tarra and Kerim.. I get it- THAT'S PRETTY CLEVER!!!

Oh my... you are out for blood aren't you? That is plain insanity! calling us a cult and now calling us the holy trinity???? Good grief where do you get this stuff? There was no hiden message in my comment about fingers pointing back at you. It means that for everything you are sitting there saying I am so wrong for YOU have done at least 3 things wrong. It means that perhaps you should take a look in the mirror before you cast judgement on others.

Nunya wrote: #7JEALOUS??- now that's the funniest of all.. girll one thing your blog has shown me- is that I have nothing to complain about... I DO feel bad for all you are dealing with- it's horrible and you are really strong to be going through a pregnancy after every thing else- you are.. so for that- I tip my hat..

Nice. You have a kind bone left? Oh, how nice of you. I wouldn't want you to tip your hat at me, thanks.

Nunya wrote: I have done several things that make me proud.. just because people have questions and such- well it doesn't mean they are bored or their life is so bad they have to pick at someone.. why are questions picking on you?? Why don't you just answer them- or not.

What questions have I NOT answered???? WHO are you talking about??? You seem to be accusing me of things that I don't even have any idea WHAT you're talking about!

Nunya wrote: Blog- unfortunately are public- so yes- it's YOUR blog- and yes- of course you can say what you want- but then others can read it pubically and post.. it's just the way it is.

I don't blog for people like YOU to make nasty comments. I blog for people who are nice and who want to read about my inner most feelings without cutting ME down in my own space. It just says more about YOU that you can't stay away when you apparently don't agree with or like anything I have to say.

Nunya wrote: But you all have given me something to think about, in all seriousness... I should start MY OWN blog so I can rip people and criticize freely.. now wouldn't that be FUN!??!

You can do what you want. If you think I will go and read anything else you have written anywhere you're crazy. I read the cult thing ONCE and that was enough. It was like ripping a person's heart out. Someone who is nice to your face and nasty behind your back. NO THANKS. You can write whatever you want about me. I will not be reading it. I will NOT follow you around and cut you down on YOUR blog. I don't play that game. I never have. If you think I have you are severly mistaken. I didn't write about YOU until you singled ME OUT either. THANK YOU for that.

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UPDATE
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THE troll above posted:

WHAT?? This is AWESOME- good job at exposing this crazy cult-like group.. I was trying like heck to think of a way to bring this to the news or magazines or something..
I was talking directly with him for some time now- and I also got some stories to tell..
This was good to see..
Thanks!

Posted by: [trolls name removed] at July 13, 2005 12:27 PM

[trolls email address removed]

The above comment was posted on a blog that some are considering to be a “reliable” source of information about A New Dawn. Funny thing is, the author of the blog acknowledges that she has not even read the books.

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NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, yes, such a reliable source of information!!!

The commentor can be found on other forums and blogs posting friendly and kind comments about A NEW DAWN before and after the above comment was posted. This is because she is a two faced back stabbing TROLL.

TROLL is defined, when used regarding internet related actions, as
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Internet_troll
a person who posts inflammatory messages intended to cause problems. Internet trolls are people who fish for other people's confidence and, once found, exploit it.

Here are a couple more posts from the same troll.

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Name: [removed to protect the trolls privacy] http://[removed to protect the trolls privacy]

Date: 2005-06-21

Email: [removed to protect the trolls privacy]


Comments: Tulin- u are an inspiration to all Cysters everywhere... thank you for taking it public. I am [detail removed to protect trolls privacy], had been diagnosed with PCOS since 1995 and after a 10 year struggle- I got pregnant with my [child].. Miracle's do happen everyday. I also ordered A New Dawn.. I am excited to try it!

07-18-2005, 12:40 PM

I would prefer to keep things private in those aspects. It does nothing but hurt people to pubically bash, expose and post things about others..

[TOO BAD YOU STARTED THAT ABOUT OTHERS AND ALL ANYONE DID WAS FIGHT BACK AND TRY TO DEFEND THEMSELVES, On their OWN blogs and websites!!]

For those wondering.. it appears I have an 'intruder' in my midst- peeping at my info- using it- posting places with it.. It no doubtedly is another 'cyster' because I am getting notes from PCOS boards saying I am trying to 'duplicate' subscribe- and often that means someone is poking aorund in my information.. I don't know..

[THIS WAS PROVEN TO BE A LIE.... THIS 'CYSTER' IS THE TROLL]

 

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Making an uninformed decision?

I am a little surprised that people judge EPC and A New Dawn based on internet searches... and inaccurate information!
I am reminded of the way the medical community has treated things such as low carb diets and metformin in the past. Those are just two of *hundreds* of things that have been treated as "quackery" by many before they were finally accepted as successful treatments for some women with PCOS (more like most or many). Both are now much more widely accepted and the main reason is that they work - not tests or research - but actual results from the women who are doing it/taking it and having success.
I remember when I first asked my doctor (old doctor) for Glucophage because I had seen it on Dateline. He laughed and told me to stop watching Dateline. He told me to get on the birth control pill and go on a diet and he said Dateline was for morons. HE thought glucophage for PCOS was nothing less than insanity. (I would love to know what his opinion is on that today and how many more women he could have helped, had he been willing to even have an open mind and look into it.... or watch the Dateline tape I brought him that he wouldn't even take from me).
That seems to be how many of these things start. It is just a matter of which ones last and which ones are actually bogus and disappear as a result.
One more thing. I recall a few years back when it was thought that doctors who believed in Metformin were quacks and the idea of metformin was "controversial". Look now. Dr. Glueck's devotion to researching metformin and PCOS is paying off and he is finally getting the respect and credit he has long deserved. His controversial ideas about metformin are thought to possibly reduce miscarriages in women with PCOS from around 50% to below 15% (those are the latest numbers from him).
I truly hoped that we would be able to read the books with an open mind and THEN judge. For me and my loved ones I make my decisions INFORMED. I do not base them on HORSE PUCKY. But, you are free to base your decisions on whatever you want. We will see who gets better and who doesn't in the end.

I figured it out!

I MUST VENT!!!!!

I figured out who "Nunya" is! (The 'anonymous' person who left that message on my blog... the person who is totally paranoid that I am out to get her, hand out retribution for her nastiness toward me.... ) LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

What is so funny is that this is a person who I have HELPED. A person who I have assisted with issues. A person who I have never been anything but KIND to. I have even gone out of my way to send birthday wishes to this person.

And she doesn't have a spine enough to TALK TO ME about whatever problem she has. She has to hide behind some fake user name while she bashes me behind my back for things that I never, ever did.

All I can say is, I hope you're happy with yourself. You spit on those who have reached out to help you, you stab them in the back and then twist the knife. You couldn't possibly have a clear conscience (perhaps you don't have a conscience at all???) if you treat people like that. How do you sleep at night?????

Funny... for every finger pointing at me there are at least 3 pointing back to you. Take a look in the mirror and stop casting judgement on me. I can't help it if you're jealous! That is not my problem!! Try doing GOOD things in your life and you will have no reason to be jealous. Try doing things that will make you PROUD of who you are, not ashamed. Hey, you have to live with you. Thank God I don't.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Do your research people!!

Tell me. If you're a person who has looked into buying A New Dawn & The Insulin Time-Bomb but decided against it, why did you decide that? Was it based on lies and poison being spread around or was it based on actual factual research? There are a lot of nasty comments going around and people blogging about how it is a scam (people who have not even read nor laid a finger on the book, by the way). Are you making your decisions with good information? Are you well informed? Or are you jumping on the bandwagon of people who are spreading misinformation and lies, with no regard for others? Sure, they do it in the name of helping you, but what they're doing is preventing people from making a decision that COULD save their life. That is WRONG and is nothing more than drama queens looking to cause more trouble and pour more fuel on the fire. These are the same people who probably sit around and bash all kinds of other things that they have very poor information about. It's like trusting the media to bring you the medical research. The media only cares about what bleeds people. They only care about causing chaos and drama. Where are YOU getting YOUR information?

"If it bleeds, it leads!" Ever hear that before? That is the kind of bandwagon that is being carried on here. If you want stress and drama and if you spend your days watching soap operas because you can't get enough fairytale bologna in your life, then the TRUTH is not for you. The truth is plain and simple. We're getting help. We're feeling better. We're not being scammed. We're not taking part in spreading lies and bologna.

What really cracks me up is one of the main people screaming about what a scam this is first of all, has NOT read the book, and second of all, calls herself a born again Christian. She spreads lies and hatred in the name of her faith. GIVE ME A BREAK! If you were a real Christian you would try to be LIKE Christ, not be hurting others and spreading poisonous lies about people. I love Jesus. I do everything I do in the spirit of helping others. I ask for nothing in return. But what I get in return, often times, is self righteous Bible-thumping nasty people casting judgment on me and others who are reaching out to help and heal. Let me tell you... Your judgment day will come and you will have to answer to God for your behavior. And if you think that being a hypocrite is going to get you past the pearly gates, well, perhaps it will... who knows. But, I doubt it.

Let's not forget in Luke chapter 9 verse 2 it states: 'He sent them out to preach the gospel AND TO HEAL THE SICK'.

Are you praying for healing? I believe that Ian Stoakes was sent to answer our prayers. To help in getting this message to those who suffer - there are 2.6 million couples in the States who suffer from infertility.

I also implore you to mediate on the following scriptures 2 Timothy 2:23-24:
Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Thanks for hanging with me


I wanted to tell you all that I am sorry for being negative in my blog posts lately. I have been VERY frustrated with... well, people, their actions, along with the stress of having two very ill sisters and other things going on in my life that are very trying and difficult.

I want to tell you that my blog is TOTALLY honest and probably a bit harsh. If I think something, I type it. I don't put on a pretty face or my diplomatic personality here. I say it like it is. This is the ONLY place that I do that. I am open, honest, free. Political correctness goes out the window and all fear of judgment does as well. This is MY tiny corner of cyberspace... My chance to speak and, if you want to listen, then I will be heard. If you don't, then that is your choice completely.

I think that sometimes people read my blog and are a bit taken back by straight forward and sometimes perhaps crass thoughts. I say it. I say it all. I think I have finally come to the conclusion that either you like me or you don't, and, so be it. That's that. I would really love for people to like me for who I really am but if they don't, then my life is better off without them in it.

I am cleaning house. I am cleaning out my heart full of feelings. I am getting rid of the bad and making room for the good. Ya know, if you're someone who just listens and never causes any problems and never argues and never has any "issues" with people, the TRUE thoughts and feelings you have build up. I have always been a peace-keeper. I have always done whatever I can to avoid controversy and not get into arguments. What has happened as a result is there are MANY MANY people who do not know me for who I am.

I have passionate feelings about many things. And I am proud to be who I am and I am tired of not "causing any waves" for the sake of others who may not like me or like my thoughts or whatever. I am me and that is that. Take me or leave me.

Again, if you're shocked when you read my blog please know that you are free not to read it. If you want to know me and know my deepest thoughts then please read on. But, understand that this is my place where I will say whatever I want to say. This is probably the ONLY place that I say it all just like it is too. Thank God I have this place!

And, I have done a lot of crying in the last week. Sobbing. My life seems to have been turned upside down in a matter of days. I found out I was pg., I found out my nephew is going to Iraq with the military, I found out my sister has cancer, I started to have some issues with pregnancy and thought I had a miscarriage, my nephew left for Iraq, my sister is fighting cancer and my family seems to be falling apart over it... my other sister is very ill and in a wheelchair with MS.... Never before in my life have I had SO MUCH going on all at once. In the meantime I am trying to keep an organization that is VERY dear to my heart running which takes many many many hours (I do this for FREE by the way, and I always have), while trying to assist in a new "sister" website to provide a safe haven for support and information about chronic inflammation and being pretty much torn apart for it over the last few months......

And if you thought that was my biggest job in life - you're wrong. I am the mother of 5 children ages 8, 7, 5, 3, and 16 mos. and we are homeschoolers which means my children NEVER, ever are out of my care. It's not like I send them all off to school or daycare while I do my volunteer work. I work my butt off *everyday* and I endure a lot of stress. But, I choose to do this and I love to do it. It isn't all roses, but then, nothing in life worth having ever is. I love my children, I adore my husband, and I love helping others.

God bless you all for sticking with me, and I wish you the best of health.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Driven

My sister has Multiple Sclerosis (a disease now thought to be caused by chronic inflammation). The worst, most progressive kind of MS. My sister was told that there wasn't even any treatment that would help her when she was diagnosed in 1994. So, with nothing to lose, already in a wheelchair, she tried bee sting therapy. Guess what? It's one of those things referred to as a "quack" treatment for MS. Guess what it did for my sister? With ONLY that as a treatment she began to get control of her bladder, feel her hands and feet, began to walk with a walker. For the last 10 years she has had bee stings for 3 times a week. They have recently stopped working, she has become immune to them. But they worked for 10 years. They gave her 10 years of life that she would not have had without them. *DOCTORS* told her there wasn't a treatment. So she tried "Quackery". She went through things like having *EDITED BY AUTHOR* she fell when trying to get from her wheelchair to *EDITED BY AUTHOR* TO being able to use a walker and go to the bathroom without worrying about that happening and keep some of her dignity.

I know someone that works at the MS Society. I am not any dummy about this. This person said that the MS Society does not acknowledge Bee Sting therapy as a treatment for MS. They are not even making available the information that it may be working for *SOME* (like my sister, who's doctors agreed that it was working for her and she should keep on doing it).

My question is this: Are they scared? They think it's bologna? They don't think it will bring in money to their doctors? I don't know - who knows with all the crap that goes on these days. All I know is, in my opinion, it should be their DUTY, in accordance with their mission statement, to provide the information (NOT endorse it mind you - just make it available) to their members and website visitors - so that the info is there and people can make their own choices. Perhaps one or two or 20 or 100 or 1000 women or men wouldn't have to *EDITED BY AUTHOR* while their children watch. Can you imagine thinking... "Oh Gosh, I guess perhaps my loved one wouldn't have had to have suffered, or died, if only we would have known about this and been able to try this 5 or 10 years ago...." WOW, what a horrible thought. And, that thought is reality. It happens everyday.

I know one thing. I don't want people telling me what I can't read or try and I can speak for MANY of us when I say they want to make their own decisions as well.

My concern is that this is just a book with useful information that provides an alternative for women like ME. How much have women like me suffered? Weren’t we, as women with PCOS, judged and told that there was nothing wrong with us because our doctors did not read the research available to them at the time, or didn't bother to read it? Sadly THIS is still occurring. I would be really upset 5 years down the road if I were to find out that this book was brought to the attention of advocates or non-profit organizations that I relied on for information, and they said "no" to it. I would be horrified to find out that it was not shared with a community of people who are begging for information, and I didn't find out about it because I trusted OTHERS to be my souce of information (thinking they had my best interests at heart). If I didn't get to even KNOW about it in order to choose whether or not I wanted to try it... I want that choice for myself - I want to have access to the info to make the choices. This is why I will not be silent about something that I know is helping people.

Go to any search engine and type in "fat bearded lady". I bet your search will come up with something about the circus. Say it outloud and people will laugh. That is what polycystic ovarian syndrome makes many of us feel like. I have tried every treatment known to man for PCOS and I have only gotten worse and worse over the years! I have 5 kids to live for. I may be getting diabetes. I have high cholesterol and I could get heart disease. When I was introduced to A NEW DAWN and Ian Stoakes I knew that I had to try something else.

Now, the EPC blood test is being referred to an awful lot as an allergy test. I want you to know that this is not an allergy test. I want to be sure that we all understand the books clearly. (I have had several questions raised, but the answers to the questions are in the books
if we read them.... such as "This is like the blood type diet." Well, it can't be like the blood type diet, which instructs all people with one type of blood to eat the same or avoid the same foods, because he even talks about a set of identical twins who he went through this with who had
completely different results. They had the same blood type.)

There is also possible confusion between this and the situation with the 'nutriceuticals' of a couple of years ago - (this was the claim that certain foods were 'good' for you) (how about Quaker Oats and cholesterol - I quote "oatmeal helps remove cholesterol"). This is not what A New Dawn is about. It states that the 'not allowed' foods may be bad for you in that they promote inflammation.

This form of thinking often brings up the next question: What if someone can show that by banning a food we have induced a nutrient deficiency? Well, we do not 'ban' food groups, just individual foods. The human, like the rat, is lucky. A sheep has the choice of grass or grass but we, and the rat, can derive our nutrients from an amazing array of sources - fruits, roots (vegetables) leaves (salads and vegetables), meats (four legged, swimming, flying etc - even crocodiles and snakes if you like that sort of thing!), diary products from cows, goats and even sheep), grains, the list is endless. If we ban one food there are many others available to take up
the slack nutrient-wise. For example, banning oranges might be thought to risk a vitamin C deficiency but kiwi fruit and red pepper (capsicum) have more vitamin C than an orange - just not so good a PR company!.

Also, most people eat a really crappy diet (nutrient-wise) because of habit. According to the research and data in these books (which is found in published sources such as PubMed etc), inflammation reduces nutrient availability in the form of intake. On the *new dawn*, Mr Stoakes says variety is stressed and the reduction in inflammation means that more nutrients are taken on board

When people purchase a book and then read a book, **what they do with the information is completely their responsibility**. The 'test' ordering section of the EPC site is under password protection - the password are attached to the backcover of the book when it is ordered. No one can order a test without access to the book for the very reason that EPC only want clients
who given their informed consent. This is very responsible of them, don't you think?

Finally... Check this out!

http://www.drsears.com/drsearspages/imflammationfoundation.jsp

Read the article. Dr. Sears has even started a foundation for chronic inflammation!

Dr. Sears states: Inflammation is becoming recognized as a primary factor in the development of a wide number of chronic disease conditions. A certain level of inflammatory response is needed to protect us from invading organisms (bacteria, viruses, and parasites) and to treat traumatic injuries. However, left unchecked, it can continue to wear down every organ in the body. This can lead to chronic diseases especially in the heart, brain, and immune system.

He goes on to explain what type of inflammation he is talking about: The other type of inflammation is silent inflammation or silent pain that is far more insidious. It doesn't generate the pain associated with classic inflammation and therefore goes untreated for years. We now know that this silent inflammation is the underlying cause of heart disease, cancer, and Alzheimer's disease. Virtually every type of chronic disease has a significant inflammatory component as its underlying cause. A primary focus of modern medical research remains the reduction of both classic and silent inflammation.

Dr. Sears' answer includes, "the combined used of a low glycemic-load diet and ultra-refined EPA/DHA concentrates."

(A New Dawn's answer is different and much better... but you will find that out for yourself).

Ian Stoakes' books have nothing to do with allergies and everything to do with inflammatory response to foods. We are at the forefront of this. I think that is AWESOME!!!!! BOTH of my sisters and myself have illnesses thought to be caused by chronic inflammation. I know that this could help us all.

And finally, with this I will close. I am taking the EPC blood test on August 29th. I cannot even put into words how excited I am to have a NEW LEASE ON LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! I will keep you posted.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Blech blech blech

I am feeling really bad these days. Being pregnant I am not able to follow the elimanation diet. So I eat as well as I can, and I feel like dirt. I am exhausted all the time. I have gained something like 15 pounds in the last month or so. I am considering going back on Glucophage until I get to take the EPC blood test. I just don't know how I can make it long like this. I can't hardly function and I have kids to take care of. You should see my house... man... it's bad.

I think I am just getting really really depressed with what all is going on in life and not feeling healthy and stuff.

What a success story I am.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Photos


After the Send-Off ceremony:
Back Left Side: Emily (my niece, Erik's sister),
Matthew Jr. (my 3 yr old), Ali (my niece, holding Matthew),

Mom (Grandma), Erik (my nephew the soldier), Kelly (his girlfriend),
Front: Taylor (my great-niece, Erik's daughter), Madi (my 8 yr old),
Tristan (my 7 yr old), & MacKenzie (my 5 yr old)



Matt (my hubby) & Treytan (our 16 month old) watching the ceremony

Thursday, August 11, 2005

VERY VERY SAD!!

I just got some very difficult news. My sister was told, or understood, that her cancer was NOT small cell and is treatable, should react well to chemo etc. However, today, at her appt., she was told that she misunderstood. They told her that it IS small cell (which is aggressive, rapidly progressing, and does not react as good to chemo) and that it may have already spread to her brain and bones. It is in her lymph nodes and both lungs.

PLEASE, please pray for my sister. The rug has been pulled out from under us all.

I got some good news today... after bleeding and having problems (probably due to stress with what is going on with my sister and all the jerks out there who insist on making life difficult because they have nothing better to do than to post nasty notes on my blog, in my email, and spread lies to everyone who will listen to them.................) I had an ultrasound today and got to see baby. Baby is looking great and moving all over. We even seen hands and feet, not to mention that beautiful beating heart.

I feel like it has been such a total roller coaster and I am totally losing it. Can I even sit with my sister during her treatments if I am pregnant??

And yet one more HUGE twist in my roller coaster ride is my nephew going to Iraq. Tomorrow is the official "send-off" which we will be attending, to salute our troops and say "farewell" for up to TWO years!! My nephew is the sweetest young man you would ever, ever want to know. I think he is really torn up with what is going on with my sister (his aunt who is much like a mother to him, and all of us). He may really have a hard time leaving now. I don't want him to go. I support our military 100%, but I don't want him to leave right now.

Thank you so much for your support and prayers! It is so greatly appreciated.

Na-na-na-boo-boo Nunya... (ha ha ha ha ha)

Silly silly sick and sad. Someone posted to my blog today and then deleted it. I guess they chickened out?

"Tarra- I have tried to view your link on this post- but apparently I am 'forbidden?"
RATS, FOILED AGAIN!

J/k- but how can a person get edjumacated when they keep getting denied.

--
Posted by Nunya to TARRA'S BLOG ~ RADICALLY HONEST!! at 8/11/2005 09:42:07 AM"


Nunya, whoever in the world you are, I am sorry that you don't have the guts to be honest and straight up about WHO you are. For one thing, I can't possibly help you get where ever you want to go if I don't even have a clue who you are.

I think it is so sad how some people can post nasty notes under fake names and anonymously but they can't seem to muster up the courage (OR INTEGRITY) to face up to the truth and stand behind it. I think that is because they are more interested in hurting people than they are in helping or spreading the truth.

ME? I have better things to do. I have a family to raise (5 beautiful children and #6 on the way). I have a husband to love. I have people to help, including my sister with Multiple Sclerosis and my other sister with cancer. And I have an entire community of women with PCOS who WANT my help and I am committed to them. What I am NOT committed to is putting up with this bogus bunch of crap.

So, "Nunya", go jump off the nearest cliff. Either that or get a spine. Not to mention a heart. I have no time for people like you. Don't bother posting again because I will not help someone like you. Other people need and want my help and they are who I have time for. I want "Nun Ya" (none of YOU).


Thursday, August 04, 2005

Quick Notes

First of all, I have to say that my heart is sad because a friend had a miscarriage... I feel so terrible for her!!!!

I wanted to tell you, if you haven't seen this you must check it out!!! http://www.pcosliving.com/epctest/epctest.html
You will need real player to check out the film clips. It shows immune activation. This basically shows us all the genius in Ian Stoakes!! MUST SEE!


And finally, I am TURDY TWO today (well, in an hour... August 5). I am getting OLD! I can't believe how totally strange it is to be "thirty-something"!!!!!!! I must say, it kind of sucks.


Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Whew... finally some GOOD news!

WOO HOO!!!!! Got some good news today. Don't know a lot of details but, my sister's cancer is apparently "not small cell" which makes it treatable with chemo. SOOOOO we have LOTS of hope that she will make a FULL recovery!!!! It is in her lymphnodes but it is not the worst kind... so... that is really good. I don't know all the little details because everyone was crying and not understandable.

My niece called us and we were just going to lunch before taking Matt to work. She was apparently in town alone, at my nephew's new house, and was going crazy wanting to run around and tell all the neighbor's and strangers and hug them all. As God would have it, we were like 5 blocks away!!! So we went and picked her up and went to lunch. She kept saying, "We get to keep her!" about her mom (my sister). It was happy times.

She is moving here, as is my nephew (her brother). So I will have family here!! That I like!!!!! My in-laws are all here but, we aren't all exactly "close". Most of my own family lives at least 100 miles away. So, for the first time in many years, I will have MY family in the same area. My nephew is having a baby in March. LOLLLLLL How funny is that???? They don't know about Matt and I yet... They're going to freak when I tell them. We're due in the same month!

My niece is 1 year younger than me and we grew up like sisters. She has lived away for several years so, we have grown apart. But, perhaps we will be close again now.

Besides that my family (siblings) are all still arguing and bickering. *EDITED BY AUTHOR* but, I guess bad times don't bring out the best in everyone. Hopefully it passes soon!! In the meantime, I plan to stay OUT of the line of fire.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Don't sweat the small stuff...

The Mayonnaise Jar and the 2 Cups of Coffee

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in
a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front
of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty
mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the
students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the
jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between
the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They
agreed that it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar
was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and
poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty
space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to
recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things--God, your family, your children,
your health, your friends and your favorite passions--and if everything
else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house
and your car.

The sand is everything else--the small stuff."

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room
for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend
all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the
things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your
spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the
house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first--the things that
really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee
represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to
show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a
couple of cups of coffee with a friend."




Much Needed Encouragement

I am feeling very paralyzed... paralyzed with fear and saddness. I don't know what to do. I feel so helpless. My family is a mess. Everyone is so upset about my sister... and you should see the fear in her eyes... it is almost unbearable...

We will find out more this week. So far we know it is an aggressive cancer that is in one lung, possibly the other, and possibly the lymph nodes.

It is my birthday on Friday. I would give anything to have good news by then.

John 14:27
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

II Corinthians 4:8-9
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;

Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Matthew 6:34
Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.